Saturday, 28 July 2012

The eternal shining of a spotless mind

Yesterday I watched a 4 year old episode of Graham Norton's show (I love his show) with Jessica Biel and Mickey Rourke. I wish I could unsee it... Yuck and eww don't cover the feeling of muck Rourke's presence on that show left in my mind. He was drunk, not just slightly tipsy, but so drunk one could hardly follow the thread of his stumbling thoughts. Worse than that he was hitting on Biel so badly it was clear he was unaware that he's drunk, on TV, she's engaged and he's far from hotpants he used to be more than 20 years ago. I felt to sorry for Jessica who had to tolerate it and for Graham who had to save the situation all the time. I'm traumatized!

Monday, 23 July 2012


Out of the blue I remembered a person I hadn't seen for nearly twenty years. I remembered him on such a deep level and so vividly as if we'd met just yesterday. The crude truth is this person is no longer alive. We hadn't kept in touch for the past two decades. Not by choice, mind you, or maybe it was by choice, who can tell two decades later? And yet I suddenly experienced this wave of memories. Not memories of events, but rather of feelings, emotions, attitudes. Memories of meaning of this person. It's hard to forget someone who meant the world to you when you were little. Such feelings come from a realm where time is powerless.
For as long as I live I will carry his memory carved deep in me, whether I want it or not.

Sunday, 22 July 2012

All you need is love pa-pa-ra-pa-pam

If you have love, you don't need to have anything else.
If you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you do have.
James M. Barrie

Saturday, 21 July 2012

A surprising remedy

I accidentally discovered that moistening mosquito stung parts of skin with salted water relieves the intolerable itching. After having my legs nearly perforated by mosquitoes in the garden I felt an almost immediate soothing after taking a bath with aromatic salts. Another time I tried simple kitchen salt with water and it worked just as well. I have no idea what chemical reaction goes on in the process, but as long as it works it's fine by me. 

Thursday, 19 July 2012


Life is chaotic, unpredictable, frustrating, scary, fascinating, miraculous, sweet, bitter, immense, short, the strongest instinct you have and the last thing you give up. There is nothing besides life in this reality. But there is so much more beyond it.

Saturday, 14 July 2012


Husband and wife is like hand and eye.
If the hand gets hurt, the eye cries. 
If the eye cries, the hand wipes its tears. 
- A Japanese saying 


On the road, everyone who drives slower than us is an idiot and everyone who drives faster than us is a maniac.

Tuesday, 10 July 2012


Thanks to those who hated me,
you made me a stronger person.
Thanks to those who loved me,
you made my heart grow fonder.
Thanks to those who envied me,
you made my self-esteem grow stronger.
Thanks to those who cared,
you made me feel important.
Thanks to those who entered my life,
you made me who I am today.
Thanks to those who left,
you showed me that nothing lasts forever.
Thanks to those who stayed,
you showed me the true meaning of friendship.


You're never too old to learn something stupid.

What I've Learned During 35 Travels Around Sun #24

There are only three seasons in a year - when people complain about cold, when people complain about heat and when people don't complain about weather, which is the shortest season of them all.


Green tea is the best relief for headache caused by pressure or heat. Love it!

Monday, 9 July 2012


Miserable people make other people miserable! I just heard it from Joyce Meyer and boy does it resonate with my reflections!
Do you sometimes feel like you've eaten food beyond expiry date after spending time with certain people? That's what I'm talking about. You can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped. If they make you miserable and don't accept changes or help you offer, the only sane thing to do is to keep away from them. Life is too short to spend it with people who bring you down.


They made a public pole about the most annoying sounds in the world and the runaway winner was...whining. Yes, even before loud neighbours 3 o'clock in the morning and noise of chalk screeching on a blackboard. And all parents in favour say 'yay'.


Constructive criticism builds. If it doesn't build you and doesn't make you believe you can and want to improve, it's anything but constructive criticism. It's out of balance and damaging.


I don't understand some people's necessity to be intentionally mean. I do understand the reason behind it, which is mostly grounded in their insecurities, the good old "stepping on others' heads to get higher". But it still catches me by surprise every time I am subjected to such treatment. I guess I have higher expectations of humans. Idealist, as a friend of mine loves to call me.

WILD35TAS aka What I've Learned During 35 Travels Around Sun #18

Probably deep down I've always been this way and I vaguely remember having had such reaction on certain behaviour of people in past, but recently I've acknowledged this side of my nature - I am impervious to attempts to modify me into someone else's image and liking. It has caused me quite a few struggles in past, but today I finally recognise it as my strength. Sometimes I might not yet know who I am, but I always feel what I am not and won't be.

Saturday, 7 July 2012

Friday, 6 July 2012


You know you need to take memory vitamins regularly if every time you see the box of the vitamins a doubt sneaks into your mind, 'have I taken them today?'

Thursday, 5 July 2012


Writing is like swinging on a rocking horse. You move back and forth, back and forth. Write and read, write and correct, write and get sick of it all, write and feel like a genius, write and... If you swing hard enough you'll notice that your rocking horse is actually moving forwards, making one tiny sliding movement at every swing. That's how writers win their battles with themselves, on their rocking horses.

Tuesday, 3 July 2012


'So age excludes the possibility of happiness?' 'No, happiness excludes age.'  Conversations with Kafka
You are just as young or as old as you set your mind to be. Being happy helps. This kind of happiness doesn't mean endless party mood, it means accepting yourself and being satisfied with who you are.

Sunday, 1 July 2012


Sometimes the only way of getting rid of obsessive ideas is to start implementing them in life. For example, I have this book idea. I have had it for a couple of years already, and the world of that book has become so real in my mind, that unless I start putting bits and pieces of it down on virtual paper aka Word file it pushes against my skull, wanting to break out! Sometimes it can cause me actual headaches. If you have an idea inside of you, for the sake of your own head, let it out and start sharing it with someone.